Jitters 6/15/13

I can't explain the anxious feeling in my stomach right now. Maybe it is the fact that it is 4 in the morning or the food I ate last night. Most likely it is the day I am about to face, in only a couple of hours I will be headed back to CHA; the place where this whole journey and mission started. I have dreamt about this day for two years now and why is it that my gut is above my head and I am just shaky talking about this? It is the fact that just last night Nalin (Use to work at CHA) was doing everything in her will power to try to convince us to not visit CHA. That blah blah blah had occurred since the last time I was there and this has changed to that. None of that matters to me those kids I left holding in my arms two years ago have created a bond with me that will last a life time.  I promised myself and all the children there I would come back. So today I will be headed back down the streets I have remembered in the back of my head since the day I left. To finally turn around the corner and see the bright colored gates that are now gray and dull, the kids that are no longer smiling, and worst of all a gate that is locked, that I must learn to unlock through trust and unconditional love.